[She hugs onto him, trembling. This is not the first time she's reached her absolute tipping point, it likely won't be the last. She feels awful that, once again, it falls on Varian's head when it's reached, which is another brick of guilt added to her load.
It's cyclical, honestly. As soon as she acknowledges her trauma or problems, she feels awful for even having them, feels worse for "dumping" it on others, and then that adds to her problems all over again.]
I've spent... so many years saving EVERYONE. That's what... That's what I'm supposed to do. I've sacrificed myself again and again and again and if I could I would AGAIN for everyone here. [She sobbed.] But it doesn't work like that. This world doesn't work like that. It took that from me!
[And there it was, a piece she had kept locked up, a secret only the girls knew. They knew perfectly well what her powers were and were capable of. But in the end of ALL of this, when she wanted nothing more than to protect this world most...
She couldn't.
No grand last stand, no joining her powers with others and making a final push against the enemies.
She could face the literal being of Chaos and get brought to her knees by a child and her sadistic grandmother.
Usagi tries to pull away, to pull it all back inside. Some of the pressure has been released from the valve but she's clearly trying to tighten it all back up before more escapes, even as she remains at critical mass.
She's fine. She's fine. She's fine.
She's got her loved ones, they're safe.
What right does she have to complain about any of this when all she is is just tired?
Boohoo, you're tired, Usagi, so is everyone else.]
No... [The words are soft. It's not the most subtle, her trying to reign herself in. She's got to be stronger. She has to be stronger so she can protect her loved ones and keep them safe. There's no time for crying and tears and breakdowns.
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It's cyclical, honestly. As soon as she acknowledges her trauma or problems, she feels awful for even having them, feels worse for "dumping" it on others, and then that adds to her problems all over again.]
I've spent... so many years saving EVERYONE. That's what... That's what I'm supposed to do. I've sacrificed myself again and again and again and if I could I would AGAIN for everyone here. [She sobbed.] But it doesn't work like that. This world doesn't work like that. It took that from me!
[And there it was, a piece she had kept locked up, a secret only the girls knew. They knew perfectly well what her powers were and were capable of. But in the end of ALL of this, when she wanted nothing more than to protect this world most...
She couldn't.
No grand last stand, no joining her powers with others and making a final push against the enemies.
She could face the literal being of Chaos and get brought to her knees by a child and her sadistic grandmother.
Usagi tries to pull away, to pull it all back inside. Some of the pressure has been released from the valve but she's clearly trying to tighten it all back up before more escapes, even as she remains at critical mass.
She's fine. She's fine. She's fine.
She's got her loved ones, they're safe.
What right does she have to complain about any of this when all she is is just tired?
Boohoo, you're tired, Usagi, so is everyone else.]
No... [The words are soft. It's not the most subtle, her trying to reign herself in. She's got to be stronger. She has to be stronger so she can protect her loved ones and keep them safe. There's no time for crying and tears and breakdowns.
The world is literally ending.]