I can't protect anyone in this place, Varian. I keep... I keep FAILING. I either can't help or I'm the one hurting them. [It would be foolish to think she was "over" October, but she did her best to keep going on with her day, she had to. If she lingered, she'd spiral, and there would be no time to deal with the problems facing them if she did that.]

I'm terrified... [She whimpers out.] I just think if I stop, even just for a second, something will happen again, because it ALWAYS happens again, Varian. It never actually stops. You or Mako-chan, Rei-chan, Mina-chan, and every other person I love. No one is ever safe and I can't... I'm not strong enough to go through it again and again.

If it isn't the world tearing us limb from limb, it's each other.